"I am the author of my life. Unfortunately, I am writing in pen and can’t erase my mistakes."

Though I call out 'I want to see you',
There's no response from you.

Maths. So hard when teacher explains, but when my tuition teacher explains, senang jer. What is wrong with the world? -scratch head-
I bled today. Entah larrr, first I got cuts on my arm, so that was bleeding. I didnt really bother, just wiped off the blood. Then tiba-tiba, during science, my nose started to bleed a lil.
My nose NEVER bleeds. weird.
Life is going downhill at the moment. Aisho.
I don't get it, people are just so annoying these days, why ah?
Or am I PMS-ing? Entah lar. It's just, they can get so annoying.
Till I feel like cekik-ing them,
For the people yang tak faham bahasa melayu reading this, cekik-ing is a mere action that can only happen when your not in a good mood and you wrap your hands around the victim's neck and start to stranggle them. :D

So yes, that is what 'cekik-ing' means. Anyway, I have no clue how to do maths, and it's first period tmrw. Learning is the only way you'll understand. mmmph.
How can people get so cruel all of a sudden?
I mean, you have friends right? Dont lar, ignore them and buat bodoh. (english : Don't ignore them and pretend they're not there)

I'm so used to speaking in Manglish. Sorry, new zealanders....I love you, but sometimes I'm just to lazy to type the meanings of words, so use google translate -bows-

Back to the point. Don't larr ignore them. Not nice, you know. It hurts they're feelings. No matter what, Do Not Ignore A Person, A Dog, A Cat, An Elephant, A Garbage Bin, A Wallet, A Pole?.
you. get. the. point.

Aish. So yeah. Don't ignore your friends. If you need some space, cakap jerr larrr.....they'll understand, and if they don't, at least they know that you need the space.
I just don't get it. Sometimes, when your not okay, it gets annoying how people ask
"Why ah?."
"Maria, why you not okay??"
"Why? Why? Why?. You better tell me"
"Why you not okay ah? Cheer up okay"
"Are you okay?"

It is just annoying. ANNOYING.
But sometimes, people want people to ask them why.
For me, i don't really bother. You ask or don't up to you larr.
All I know is, don't take it personally if I don't respond to whatever your saying.
It's cause, I look like I'm listening, but I'm not.

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Why do people get angry over tiny things?
Learn the art of patience, it gets you further in life.
Like today for instance, I'm not trying to state anything, I'm just using it as an example.

Form 2's took our table during rehat. I dont why, but some people got their knickers in a twist.
Whatever larrr.
So yeah, these form 2's took our table while I was at the koperasi. Anyway, when I got to the canteen, they had already chased them off. Poor form 2's. So yeah, and one of them left their plate behind. -.-
So well, if you all didnt know. We get demerited if our table is dirty. So yeah, everyone started arguing about the plate. ITS JUST A PLATE. A PLATEE. You know P-L-A-T-E.
Anyway, so one of the form 2's accidentally left her bottle oon the table, and came back to get it. I think her name was Shalini. Entah lar. So yeah. And one of us, kept asking her to take the plate, and she got her knickers in a twist and said ; It's my friends plate, why are you asking me to take it?"
I already had a lot of things on my mind, so I just couldnt take the noise and all the arguing involved. so I told the person who asked Shalini to take the plate, to forget it. Then I pulak kena marah, whatever larr. When people are angry at you, don't retaliate, makes things worse. and I'm speaking from experience. So after the person was done arguing with me. I just walked away. I mean. If they're going to argue over a plate, might as well let them do it. So I left. I wanted to take the plate with me and just put it in that basin thing but yeah forgot to. So yeah, I ended up rehating with Damia, Mas, Sara and all. Damia and me were walking and talking to see cik Foo. Damia was talking to Cik Foo. I was doing the thing I do best, leaning against a wall, silently. And this group of form 1's came up to me and asked me if I was Maria Monash. I said yeah. Then they started talking about me, in front of me.
One of them said that In SSP, she looked up to the gang and me, cause we ruled the school. literally. We made our presence known. I dont know how that happened cause all we did was have fun.
Then another one said I was an all star player, she meant in sports. -.-
I dont know where that came from.
The rest said cause we were cool and I rocked at dancing and all that. I was just standing there and nodding. Then Cik Foo said "Maria. Since when you're so famous with the form 1's?"
Me: "uhhhhhhhh.............uhhhhhhh........don't know lar teacher."
Then she laughed and walked away.
0__________0

Then the day went on as its normal boring self.  A lot of form 1's came and asked me if I was me/ looked at my name tag and all, then whispered amongst themselves and walked away. A few made me take a picture with them. Most of them were from SSP, then I guess they just told they're friends or something. I dont know. I dont care either.

At around 2, Cynta, Adline and me went to amcorp to lepak. wasnt really fun. kinda boring. cause well I was thinking. as usual. aish. But there were fun parts here and there. I bought another pick! :D

Are'nt you supposed to live your life to the fullest?
Do whatever you want,
be who you want to be, dream big. and all that jazz ?????

If what you want to be is an idiot who only thinks about PMR, well that's up to you. It's just so annoying, how everyone is so caught up with PMR. It.is.very.the.annoying.
I am a lil bit worried about PMR. but I want to laugh, dance and be jolly too. not just study, tuition, study study, mann, isnt that boring and annoying?
Talk about other things people. Aisho.
Everything is so boring lately. Is everyone getting more and more mature or is it just me?
Aish.
Or maybe I'm still caught up with all the stuff running through my head that I dont notice the fun things in life?
I.dont.know.

There's so many things I want to say, but I'm just not the kind of person who shares.....
Truth is, sure I tell people secrets....but they're not really secrets, yet they're secrets. I tell them the secrets that I'm not that bothered about. The real secrets, I keep to myself.
Ever since I was a kid, I've built this wall around my heart, not to see if anyone cares to break it down. But just idk, to prevent myself from getting hurt.....again. Yes, I can't believe that I'm saying this on my blog, but yeah. I haven't emo-ed this year. It was my new year's resolution. I just get lost in thought, and don't feel like saying anything after. NOT EMO-ING.

PMD was so boring. Now back to studies and staying back. aishhh.
Well, you only have to put with this for one more year, Mia.

Mia ; . . . . .

My class is so quiet. I miss 2A. So boring mann, 3C. Aishh..... -.-
Nick and Leon gave me, you know that small cute plushy thing..... I think it's called a Domokun! So I have 3 now....
Thanks to you people! :D
Back to school.....and on the first day itself we got homework.
Teachers should be banned from giving us homework on the first day of school. Its. not. cool.
Alya and Yen Fern have stopped blogging.....
They're studying for PMR.
whatever.
Australia.....Australia....Australia.
The only thing I can think about now.
Seriously. Teachers should be banned from giving us homework.
Aisho.
I found all these french stuff in my room....so I made use of them. Wheee! :D
Nick's writting another song. -.-
again. -.-

Homework. Homework. Homework.
I haven't FB'd in ages. no internet. right now, I'm using my dad's office computer, illegally.
What time is it?
4.25pm.
Okay,
Aren't you hungry?
Have a strawberry.
They scare me.
Are'nt strawberries scary to you?

Everyones depressed. 2 people depressified my notebook. You know who you are..... -kenings kenings-
-sneeze-

Oh yeah, Happy New Year Ebbybody!!
teehee.....

Thick black pens are awesome. Thin ones too. Aren't they awesome?
:D
Oh, I bought this keychain with a panda on it.....
It's adorable. cause it looks hynotic.
Panda's are cool larrr people.
I named it. . . .
Okay I didnt name it. Who names a keychain?
-.-

Anyway, It's gonna rain. Perfect for sleeping.
Time to listen to songs.
Goodbye.

There's too much change going on everywhere.....and about 85% of it, is not good.....I repeat Not Good!. Aisshhhh......it was starting to piss me off when I found out that our classes changed.....aishh.... Adline and Lavynia and me were supposed to be in 3C, and eva and oli were s'posed to be in 3D. hahaha.....now Adline and me are in 3E, Lavynia and Cynta are in 3B. Sie Mone is 3A, Alya and Oli are in 3F. I'm not sure about the rest though......I don't give a damn what class I'm in......but sometimes change can get really annoying.....
Aishhh.....

Getting more and more emotionless day by day......

"The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it in your pocket" -MiaMo (c)

Christmas...it used to be such a tradition. But I guess traditions change as people change as the clock keeps ticking. Sad really. This christmas it took a toll on us all. The first christmas without Grandma and BJ.

I don't get it....
I don't get girls to be precise. Well most of em anyway.
So dramatic.
Holidays.....hmmmm.....well I've been the walking dead for about a month now....
Emotionless......not to say totally emotionless but about 80 percent of my 'emotions' are artificial.
Live with it, people.
Just not in the mood to be... ME.

I have to go. Today's the last performance. at Subang Parade, 7.30pm. Come watch!