Even the girl I know who isnt afraid of anything and doesnt give a shit about stuff can be afraid of dialling numbers and cares a hell lot of it now,

Yes Cynta's talking about me.

Never say I love you: Girl,yes you: "I cant believe your moving . Still now I cant . Ive been crying all day,hoping you would stay .Im praying now that you wont say goodbye,fig..."

We built it like a castle of sand
And we held it in the palm of our hands
Never let it blow away in the wind
Or we'd catch it, put it back together again
 
I still don't
Remember life before
You came inside
And opened up that door
You're an angel I've
Never known a love like yours
Something special that's for sure
Cause I stay up late night and wait for your call
When I hear your voice nothing matters at all
Girl, I got no choice I just can't help but fall for you

When you're scared and lonely just pick up the phone
You're my one and only, you're never alone
There is no hope for me it's too late I've fallen for you

Life.....
I saved the news and kinda broke it to them today....
That I MIGHT NOT be here for next year.
It was easier then telling them like last week ....
Jyeahhh.....enough of that......
Yesterday was Jia Yi's birthday!!
So. Nisha bought a cake and brought it today....
And jyeahh.....she cut it. Then Pn.Ranchani called us into the billik disiplin cause of that. =.=
And there were at least 10 people there........'human gang'
So yeah, we got lectured bout it.....
And Lavynia and me zoned out.....
So I asked her 'what's happening?'
She said 'No idea'
-nods-
Then both of us were just standing there like zombies with our hand in the pocket with a 'when is this gonna end?' expression......
IN THE END.....AFTER ALL THE LECTURING.....we just kena demerit....i was like....
Dash dot dash dot dash dot dash.
-.-.-.-

Pn. Loh retired today.....she said quote 'when you're looking for a husband follow your head not your heart' 
Damn, imma miss her....
School's gonna be over this Friday.....
 

Had no mood during school today...... just wanted to curl up on my bed, stare out the window and cry. 
:)
And yeah, imma talk them into staying.

Mia; puzzled

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy
Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you’re here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream

Why is it that everywhere I go, I hear that song........
It's so sad, mann.....
Cried myself to sleep last night.
Too many thoughts running through my head......

Yesterday wasn't really a good day for me....
Had no mood. at all.
Just wanted a hug. a sincere one.
Didnt get one :(
But yeah.....
The times I laughed and smiled yesterday were all fake....
yeah, I can act okay......
:/
Things have been bothering me lately.
Trying to not think about them.
I can survive the day doing that.....
But once night falls......
; I'm a house of cards in a hurricane.

Trying to let go and move on is harder than I though it would be.

School ends next week.......
God, I dont want it to end.........
Imma miss the laughter.

Mia ; thoughts are running through my head as tears run slowly down my cheek

Honestly, at first I didn't know, though it was an accidental encounter

Till now, I've learned more about sorrow than happiness

Though I was full of tears, I will bring you only laughter

I must have finally found my other half

My heart is racing like this

Found you my love, The person I've been searching for

I want to share a heated embrace with you

Stay still and close your eyes

love you, its you who I love...

 I can't have you 
by nicholas c. yap

Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why

I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.

You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.

It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away

I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game

As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!

Labels: Poems

It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heartstrings open and bared

With me left here still thinking
What was false, what was true
So puzzling and so complex
I’m left to await another clue

On my heartstings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me

I’m wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key. 
-mia- 

Thinking Of You by Nicholas C. Yap

As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - Remembering the tremendous love That has been shared. A touch that is so soft, Yet has struck my soul to the core - A look so tender and true, It shakes the very life within. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - I want to tell you How much I miss you. Silly, I know, it has only been moments. The time that we are not together Seems to pass so slowly. As I sit here alone, My thought are only of you - I wait with great anticipation, Longing to be once again in your arms For the reassurance I see in your eyes, To share again your warmth and laughter. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - We know that love is for the here and now; It isn't always forever. Through painful lessons in life, That is what we have learned. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - Remembering the tremendous love That has been shared, A touch that is so soft, Yet has struck my soul to the core. A look so tender and true, It shakes the very life within. As I sit here alone My thoughts are only of you - Maybe we can learn once again That love can be forever

I sit here thinking alone in the rain, thinking of my sorrow, misery, and pain. 
I sit here listening to the thunder crashing down, 
knowing my life is better when you’re around. 
As I sit here watching the storm roll on, 
all I think about is you, and how you are gone.
As I look at the dark clouds above, 
I sit here and wonder whom you’re thinking of. 
It’s like the sky is crying and I am too, thinking of how I’m missing you.
I miss your hugs and gentle touch, and the way you tell me you care for me so much. 
I miss the way you tell that i'm not okay and cheer me up, 
I hope that  your feelings are  real and not a figment of my imagination. 
Now as I look up at the clear sky above, I’m thinking of you, and I think I’m in love.
-mia-

"I can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we've done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else but you."