I can't have you 
by nicholas c. yap

Everything was simple
Everything was fine
I knew I couldn't have you
And I knew why

I tried to move on
I dated other guys
But then we'd hang out
And I knew, to myself I lied.

You noticed me drifting
You said "please explain"
But, I didn't want to loose you
So, I tried to deal with the pain.

It's hard to be with you
It gets harder each day
When I look in your eyes
I feel my body floating away

I miss the way it used to be
You don't feel the change
You don't know I really love you
I'm sure to you, it's just a game

As I close my eyes tonight
I'll pray as I was taught to do
I'll pray that you realize that
I love you, but I can't have you

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!

Labels: Poems

It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me

Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heartstrings open and bared

With me left here still thinking
What was false, what was true
So puzzling and so complex
I’m left to await another clue

On my heartstings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me

I’m wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key. 
-mia- 

Thinking Of You by Nicholas C. Yap

As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - Remembering the tremendous love That has been shared. A touch that is so soft, Yet has struck my soul to the core - A look so tender and true, It shakes the very life within. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - I want to tell you How much I miss you. Silly, I know, it has only been moments. The time that we are not together Seems to pass so slowly. As I sit here alone, My thought are only of you - I wait with great anticipation, Longing to be once again in your arms For the reassurance I see in your eyes, To share again your warmth and laughter. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - We know that love is for the here and now; It isn't always forever. Through painful lessons in life, That is what we have learned. As I sit here alone, My thoughts are only of you - Remembering the tremendous love That has been shared, A touch that is so soft, Yet has struck my soul to the core. A look so tender and true, It shakes the very life within. As I sit here alone My thoughts are only of you - Maybe we can learn once again That love can be forever

I sit here thinking alone in the rain, thinking of my sorrow, misery, and pain. 
I sit here listening to the thunder crashing down, 
knowing my life is better when you’re around. 
As I sit here watching the storm roll on, 
all I think about is you, and how you are gone.
As I look at the dark clouds above, 
I sit here and wonder whom you’re thinking of. 
It’s like the sky is crying and I am too, thinking of how I’m missing you.
I miss your hugs and gentle touch, and the way you tell me you care for me so much. 
I miss the way you tell that i'm not okay and cheer me up, 
I hope that  your feelings are  real and not a figment of my imagination. 
Now as I look up at the clear sky above, I’m thinking of you, and I think I’m in love.
-mia-

"I can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we've done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else but you."

Yeah, as you guys heard we suprised Yen Fern on her birthday....
Her parents knew, so her dad took her and her sis out for futsal and we ransacked her house, put deco up, filled waterballoons.....and trashed her guest room.....muahahhaaha.
We played that apples in the bucket thingy, and water fight!! All in all...GILER FUN!
Pictographs!! ;D

Filling the normal balloons with water

Get the apple peole!!

After getting soaked...

Group picture!! Lavynia is the football!! ;D

Sangeetha just watches....

I was walking in a park today, with a few friends......mainly guys.
We were walking, fooling around and one of them had brought his little sister along, and so she quickly made friends....and all.So yeah....
10 minutes later....

This guy's little sister, Mallory came up to me with this bunch of little kids and said
"Can we ask you something?"
"Yeah...sure...ask away"
I stood there terpegun and all the dudes started laughing like insane maniacs.
"Yeahhh.......why??"
"You act like them......and we think you're a guy"
"Okay......-still terpegun-"
"So, you're sure you're a girl?"
"Okay....now not so much"

Kids walk away........
I started laughing when I realized that I did act like one of the guys, a lot like the guys.....
Maybe I just have 2 personalities.
I could be a guy in a girl's body.
Hahaha......
That was the epic moment of the day!
:)

Mia ; Is really a guy in a girl's body ;)

"I know it's not you're fault,
But I'm a locked door,
An inside I'm a mess,
By people before,
And I wish that I, I could find a key
To unlock all the things that you want us to be
Let me open up and start again,
But there’s a safe around my heart
I don’t know how to let you in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time.
I said I need you,
I need you to understand"

I'm not the kind of person, who lets everything out....
Last time I did that,
It was used against me,
That felt like a dozen knives being stabbed into my back.
That's probably why I started building walls up,
I get sad......,
I get mad.....,
Friend's ask why ?,
I just shrug.

I wonder who would even take the time, breaking these walls down.
I don't think I can handle it anymore.....
Too much, being kept in.
TOO MUCH I TELL YOU!

Laughter and smiles, people say are the best cure....
They're also the best disguise....
Ever thought my happiness was a disguise?
Bet it never crossed you're mind.....at all.
Sometimes it is,
Sometimes it isn't
Ha.Ha.Ha.
Got you're mind boggling now, don't I?

hahhahahaha......... teehee.
Chillax ah wei........
:)

Mia ; needs a hug. ;)

Have you ever been in a situation where someone critics you in a playful manner? & It hurts you? & you would like the critic them back with a way better reason? But you're afraid of hurting them?

Don't you just want his hair???
OMG!

So Fine.

Hott!!! Can die......especially the hair......<3

TaeMin <3
The attractive hair!
Like ZOMBIE G!!!
THE HAIR!!!
I want it.
smexay!
Okay i'm officially going insane!

Mia ; officially insane :)

“The saddest love is to love someone, to know that they still want you, but the circumstances don’t let you have them.”

Kissing is healthy. Bananas are good for cramps. Chicken soup actually makes you feel better. Its true. Guys DO insult you if they like you. Having someone rub your tummy when it hurts actually helps it. 89% of guys would want girls to make the first move. Girls love it when Guys hug them from behind the waist. Girls love it when guys let them wear their hoodie or jacket. Guys think its cute when you mess up. A true friend will NEVER judge you.There is only one guy who is worth your tears. If you have a dream about someone, then that person went to sleep thinking about you. More guys than girls will read this. ♥

"You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows." 

"True friends are like diamonds precious but rare. fake friends are like fall leaves found everywhere."

Walk around your city and appreciate the colour, texture and smell of the things that surround you. Even a rock is special. :)

"Our language has wisely sensed the two sides of being alone. It has created the word Loneliness to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word solitude to express the glory of being alone."

Yesh yeshh......
It was Yen Fern vs Yen Fern.
Explanation : Heng Yen Fern (The blurr one)
                              vs.
                    Pn. Yeo Yen Fern (The expressionless one) a.k.a Science teacher


during science, we had a quiz.....so yeah....EPIC MOMENT!

Yen Fern : *answers question*
Pn. Yeo   : You sure?
Yen Fern : -nods-
Pn.Yeo    : very sure? -suspense-
Yen Fern : -nods blurrly-
Pn. Yeo   : very very very sure? Is that you're final answer?
                *TOO MUCH SUSPENSE*
Alya : Woah! Woah! Woaahhhh! Woahh! Woah!
         -potong steam ah, Alya!!-
Yen Fern : Yup
Pn. Yeo : -checks answer-

Alya : Woahh -hits Yen Fern- Woah.... -hits me- WOAHHH!!! -stares at teacher-

Hahahahha, Alya potong steam!!! :P
EPIC MOMENT!!!
"THE COOL" is so COOL!