Life's A Journey, Not A Destination
20110527 @ Friday, May 27, 2011
Don't be a hypocrite. Don't waste your life being emo. After all you talk about being happy on the outside, and breaking, no, decomposing, on the inside... shouldn't that mask of happiness wear off a little on you? It has, for me. To the point that people think I'm pretending, because I am ridiculously happy everyday! And most of the time now, I am. Even when I get the worst marks in class, I can honestly say that I'm happy.I laugh when I'm worried, but that's to make me stop worrying (which does help, seriously, but makes people think I'm over-reacting or just plain nuts).
Its not just me, I bet there are lots of other people out there, and they too, laugh in the face of adversity. They don't fear pain. They don't ber-emo 24/7 unless they're at that time of month where they're outta laughing gas. Life would be so much better for you if you didn't say ridiculously depressing stuff about your life, and worry the shit out of your friends who care for you.
Its not just me, I bet there are lots of other people out there, and they too, laugh in the face of adversity. They don't fear pain. They don't ber-emo 24/7 unless they're at that time of month where they're outta laughing gas. Life would be so much better for you if you didn't say ridiculously depressing stuff about your life, and worry the shit out of your friends who care for you.
-Eva Chee
Those few moments whenever someone spaces out into their own world; I can't help but to always wonder, "What's he/she thinking about?" "Is he/she troubled?" "How're they feeling now?" "Angry? Sad? ..or just reminiscing?" "Is it okay for me to say something?" "What's wrong?"
-Yen F
Friends,
You may not know it, but they just seem to have the same thoughts as you....sometimes.
Anyway, more tomorrow I guess,
I hafta go. :)
Remember to always say goodbye cause you never know what could happen,
M icky.
Son Of A Cuteness
Friday, May 27, 2011
See how comel Nick was when he was younger! Can die, you know.
Comel tahap dewa.
And now look at him, aishhhh.....
Total mindrape.
How can comelness turn into .... that?
Beginners
Friday, May 27, 2011
I didn’t start surfing until I was 11. It was with a beginner’s mind that I excelled, not taking flopping around in the water as a sign of weakness. Instead, all that flopping made me more buoyant and a much better surfer.
I didn’t start breakdancing until I was 12. During those awkward primary school years I could’ve quit Titanium because I thought It was no use staying in it. I'm glad I didn't, they've been my wall to lean on. I knew as a beginner I had permission to suck and that eventually I’d rock. And now I do.
So remember this. We are all beginners. We haven’t done this before. You haven’t been you on this day before. I haven’t been someone’s solid rock before. I haven’t been me at 15 14+ before. Each day is new and we’re all allowed to fall down as often as we need to. It is through these mistakes and fumbles that we’ll likely get it right next time.
I wish, I had the word beginners tattooed on my right arm. :)
Told Nick to get one. Found out that Soo Sun, Arial and Angela read my blog wanted to read my blog. Welcome dudes. They made me invite them. ish.
Losers.
Losers.
DID YOU KNOW THAT DOUCHE BOUGHT TICKETS FOR AMERICAN IDOL THE FINALE?
Fuck him, man. Fuck him.
I was s'pose to go home early today, cause I wasn't feeling well at all. Then i ate chicken, which made me feel worse. Stupid move, but the temptation was too hard to resist.
Oh well. He met, Scott McCreery. That flippin douche....
Yes, I have officially gone all 'OMFBBQS' mode on Scotty, who is for your information
THE FLIPPIN WINNER OF AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 10
XD
He is so cool, with his low voice, and the most comel lest expressions. Sadly, only Regina and me think so. I'm officially putting him in a bottle :)
My girlfriend. XD
I have a question for you, YES YOU!... you know who you are :)
Can I keep you in a bottle? and keep it in my pocket?
Can I keep you in a bottle? and keep it in my pocket?
Words From Showdown 2011
20110525 @ Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Yeah, blood clots…
Doctor Lee said so J
You can barely see it, cause of my ‘tanned skin’
But, you can see it under a lot of light .
The fact that I never noticed it, but Mel and Shir Lynn did, proves that they are officially stalking me .
Yes people, I know you’re reading this. Stalkers, hmph.
The fact that people such as, Khairina…. Yes Khairina the prefect who has given up on my tie was liking things and pictures on my profile from the days in the far away past, is slightly creepy.
Hence, to me she’s a stalker.
Not just her, there’s also Shir Lynn, Drakie, and some of the ECX guys. That’s only the amount of new stalkers for today. Yes I get stalked. Cause of my macho-ness, according to some.
Which for your information, I lost for about
So I went crazy. Hyper.
But inside I’m like “I WANNA GO HOMEEEEE!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE! GO AWAY! CYNTA, HURRY UPPP!!!! AHHHHHH”
Soo Sun fell today, very the ROFL moment. She and Arial were walking out of the pusat akses, and I could see her from where I was sitting…. Ahh, the perks J
Then Arial was trying to ask me whether I was staying back, and I said no. Then Soo Sun was hungry so she started jumping and started over exaggerating moves, and fell flat to the floor. I started laughing, cause it was so cute and so funny. The whole class was quiet at that time, so when Pn. Santira, yes Pn. Santira my beloved English Teacher -.-
Asked me, “Lavy…..Maria, You crazy already ah dei?”
Me “……”
Virus : -stares-
Me : “…”
Virus : Okay class, since Maria has gone insane, everyone beware.
Dashdotdash.
We were staring at each other for like a minute.
Hah! I won (Y)
-Starts poking blood clots-
I’m feeling a little unwell now, so imma go and catch some Z’s.
Yes, I’m at showdown, posting this.
Jealous?
I’ll post a peekture lator.
Mel’s Spanish exam is coming up soon, she want’s me to help her.
Dude. I learnt Spanish a long time ago, I probably forgot half of it.
Realmente no puedo recordar mi espanol
Hmmm…
As you all know, we’re performing at Showdown today, but we got the dates mixed up, so we’re performing from next week onwards. But only SOME of our performances will be on air. They want us to give advice to the teams. Ish, like I already don’t have a job.
Fruits– Las Fruitas
Micky Out.
BloodClot
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
I found 2 blood clots on my arms…
Yeah, blood clots…
Doctor Lee said so J
You can barely see it, cause of my ‘tanned skin’
But, you can see it under a lot of light .
The fact that I never noticed it, but Mel and Shir Lynn did, proves that they are officially stalking me .
Yes people, I know you’re reading this. Stalkers, hmph.
The fact that people such as, Khairina…. Yes Khairina the prefect who has given up on my tie was liking things and pictures on my profile from the days in the far away past, is slightly creepy. Hence, to me she’s a stalker. Not just her, there’s also Shir Lynn, Drakie, and some of the ECX guys. That’s only the amount of new stalkers for today. Yes I get stalked. Cause of my macho-ness, according to some.
Which for your information, I lost for about 1 minute 7 seconds today, because I had a killer headache, and my shot mark started burning cause of the gun powder.
So I went crazy. Hyper. But inside I’m like “I WANNA GO HOMEEEEE!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! LEAVE ME ALONE! GO AWAY! CYNTA, HURRY UPPP!!!! AHHHHHH”
Soo Sun fell today, very the rofl moment. She and Arial were walking out of the pusat akses, and I could see her from where I was sitting…. Ahh, the perks J
Then Arial was trying to ask me whether I was staying back, and I said no. Then Soo Sun was hungry so she started jumping and started over exaggerating moves, and fell flat to the floor. I started laughing, cause it was so cute and so funny. The whole class was quiet at that time, so when Pn. Santira, yes Pn. Santira my beloved English Teacher -.-
Asked me, “Lavy…..Maria, You crazy already ah dei?”
Me “……”
Virus : -stares-
Me : “…”
Virus : Okay class, since Maria has gone insane, everyone beware.
Dashdotdash.
We were staring at each other for like a minute.
Hah! I won (Y)
-Starts poking blood clots-
I’m feeling a little unwell now, so imma go and catch some Z’s.
Yes, I’m at showdown, posting this.
Jealous?
I’ll post a peekture lator.
Mel’s Spanish exam is coming up soon, she want’s me to help her.
Dude. I learnt Spanish a long time ago, I probably forgot half of it.
Realmente no puedo recordar mi espanol
Hmmm…
As you all know, we’re performing at Showdown today, but we got the dates mixed up, so we’re performing from next week onwards. But only SOME of our performances will be on air. They want us to give advice to the teams. Ish, like I already don’t have a job.
Fruits– Las Fruitas
Micky Out.
Micky says #2
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
You can spend, minutes, hours, days, weeks or
even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to
put the pieces together, justifying what could've,
would've happened - or you can just leave the
pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.
Me brother, alieno :)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Everyone knows Nick’s blog.
The one where he’s supposedly from Japan, well it’s not a lie but it’s not the entire truth either.
His twin brother, Kevin Ryan had …lost his life cause of saving Nick’s ass. So Nick just continued Kevin’s blog
So now he has his own blog,
There's pics of Nick when he was a kid, i found in my room.
So comel, can die :)
Imma post it up sometime. :)
Can’t Go Back
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
There's something extremely humbling about watching how simple it is to please a kid. Just pocketing a golf ball and getting a high five for it is enough to get a lovely grin out of them. Don't even get me started on when they actually won something as simple as stickers. Childhood, that's simplicity. All those people that give their kids iPhones and whatever gadget is cool these days, have got it all wrong. All a kid needs are stickers and bubbles.
-Meeleo
Anything you write after I am is simply a concept. So choose what comes after it carefully.
I am successful. I am fulfilled. I am an astronaut. I am amazing. I am late. I am in trouble. I am enlightened. I am yours. Etc.
For weeks ,I was devoted to I am sad. I am wrong. I am incomplete. I am not fully expressed. And while none of those things are true unless I believe them to be, my resistance to being love only brought more pain and lethargy.
Finally, with a little help from my friends, classical music, cleansing, exercise, acceptance, and lots of prayer, that which shifts all thoughts back to love, I can finally say I’m on a much clearer path to health and happiness.
I am healthy.
I am happiness.
I am alive.
I am.
Im not afraid to let go anymore. If it looks to others like I did something wrong, made bad choices, acted selfishly, or fearful, then so what. I can say, to you I am wrong. I am selfish. etc. Big deal. Stick and stones may break my bones but I choose not to give those thoughts a home. When I am sad I will simply be grateful for the sadness as it is a gift, a miracle in fact, to experience this powerful emotion, trusting the pendulum swings both ways; embracing all of life in it's awkward perfection. I would never tattoo ‘I am sad’ on my body so why would I dwell on it in the mind? I am awesome, however, will make a great tattoo.
Cause I know, I am the definition of awesome…
Chehh. J
Hmmmm……
Stars, Nick’s brother…… Ahhh ‘whatshisname’ my memory has been failing me lately. Damn.
Took a picture of the stars in Korea, and sent it to us
It was a stupid move really. Cause we couldn’t see anything, till we put it in some software that Titanium’s computer had.
It was sooo…… fascinating. It got us thinking, about how small we really are. I don’t know if you remember this movie,
Can’t really remember the title but it’s something like Hornet or something… with the elephant and the speck?
I got it!
Horton hears a Who
Something like that. It humbles one to know that no matter what, how great you think you are…
Your still a speck. A small little speck, that can be squished like this…
Do you feel the pain?
Here’s an idea you can try to remind you how magnificent and accessible the universe is. Next time you’re stargazing, lie flat on your back so you feel physically stuck to the earth at length. Now instead of imagining you’re looking UP at the stars, remember you’re really looking OUT at them. Aren’t we indeed simply stuck to the side of the planet anyway? When you look at a picture of earth, we’re not necessarily on top of it. Nope. We’re just stuck to the side of it; all of us just dangling out here on our sides of the rock. Lucky for us there IS gravity to keep us safe here. Gravity is like the yellow line they ask we stand behind when the roller coaster is about to pull into the station. Or it’s the fence that keeps us from peering too far over the edge of the great canyon. Gravity is our seat belt protecting us from oblivion. Also, when you’re lying there looking out. Look down towards your feet and up past the top of your head and experience the great height at which we’re floating. It’s pretty far out.
this change of direction in your thinking will make you feel different about the linear surface of the earth, that which we often spend too many hours defending our egos, our political borders and the imaginary boundaries created to spend our funny monies, chasing celebrities and watching TV. Boo.
I learned to surf, juggle, play guitar, play basketball, skate as in Tony Hawk not ice skating…( can’t imagine myself in a leotard at this age, though I did take up ballet for a while ) and break dance comparatively early in my childhood (except the guitar part). I don't bother with "it's too late to learn that, i'll look silly." Be here now. What better time to give yourself a positive affirmation and start having fun.
With so many recent defeats in my day to day. i decided it's what the planet ruling Gods had in mind for me.
With so many recent defeats in my day to day. i decided it's what the planet ruling Gods had in mind for me.
Damn, I sound mature. Perasan jap J
We got some exam results back.
39/40 for English 1 (1 ducking mark man… eeeeeeee)
29/40 for Pemahaman
28/40 for Math 1
14/60 for Math 2 (die. Fail.) <- Whole damn class failed maths….whipeeee
And yeah 58/75 for moral.
Oh… and my latest ‘achievement’ 28/60 for Sejarah
Zzzzzz………
No Comment.
My hair smells goooodddd…
-inhales-
Ahhhhh.
It’s funny how today, Cynta and me were euphemizing, and all of a sudden the very person we were talking about pops out of nowhere. I swear, Cynta would have started crying if it were’nt for our ‘keep serious face’ thing . XD
People say I’m emo. Yeah meh? No larrr, headache tahap dewa jerr……
I really need to eradicate all the ‘emo-ness’ I have on my blog. I’m not emo, I just think in a sad way. Like Eyore.
Even though he’s cute, I need to stop being Eyore. Mum is started calling me Eyore.
Dotdotdot
20110520 @ Friday, May 20, 2011
Dear whoever is reading this, I understand how rough things are right now. I just want to let you know that things will get better, I promise. Keep holding on just a little bit longer. I know you feel like nobody really cares. You’re wrong, stop denying it. I care, otherwise I wouldn’t be writing this. You’re not alone, we may be miles away but we’re all going through the same things. Please keep holding on.